haters are always more fun than fans. hatemail ftw!

Okay, I'm a horrible crybaby, but I can't believe it... Tonight it's all over. I've only been alive for fourteen and a half years, so for something that is almost decade old to be over is emotionally scarring.

haha, okay, maybe that was overly dramatic. If you don't know what I'm talking about it's the last installment of Harry Potter. Tonight at midnight it comes out, and all true fans are watching the clock. I shouldn't even be on the internet right now, because it's "tradition" that the three days before and the three days after the books come out people post spoilers all over the internet. I'm guilty of it too, I posted a lot of fake ones on MySpace, just to ruin it for my friends. So, call me childish, call me stupid, but you don't understand how much of my childhood was effected by these "books". I learned all my morals from Harry Potter books (thanks Mom!). Everything I learned about friendship was from watching Ron and Harry treat eachother like shit and come right back to each other as soon as they saw the other person needed someone. Everything I learned about crushes and dealing with them was from Harry and Cho. Hermione taught me to always be proud of myself. Ginny taught me that that someone you think is worthless could be your most important ally. Dumbledore taught me lots of things, like to stand for my beliefs, and be loyal. Hagrid taught me kindness. Sirius taught me never to judge a book by it's cover.

I remember when I was younger, maybe 2nd, 3rd grade... I'm not sure, I stood in the middle of my school's bookfair and had two books in my hand, Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone, and a Lizzie McGuire journal. I didn't have enough for both. I think I made the right choice, a love for reading, a childhood hero, people I could relate to (other fans, not fictional characters), someone to look up to.

Well, this was probably babble to you guys, but the people who get it know what I'm talking about.  Whatever happens tonight, no matter what, I am really proud of what has become of all this. And I'm glad I got to take part in something that touched so many lives in such different ways... I am such a total geek for writing this.

edit; I'm also not going to be on the internet until I finish the book. No IMs after midnight, because no one is ruining this for me.